dear anthony,
i’ve been reading this daily and cannot explain to you how bad i need you to continue with your follow up post. i lost my old son, ashton … in a car wreck … i was the drver and i was at fault. i can not take this daily pain anymore. i also read that if there is a human down here on earth that cannot not let go of the pain, the distres, i can hold him back from moving on into his spirituality due to the distres i am causing him. i also read if i commit suicide i will make it to the other side, i will be greeeted by angels, my spiritual guides and even the family memebers as i remember them however, the plane i will be on won’t be as bright, it’ll be dimmer and i’ll have to work my way up but at least my baby can move on. this child wasnt your average child in any sense of the world and even confided in a friend of mine that i knew i wouldnt keep him forver////i knew he he was too good to be true. please help me….my tme here is limited.
Dear Lisa,
I’m often asked how long I’ve known I have this ability, and my answer is always the same, “I didn’t. I had clues, but because I’m from an island (Guam) and a culture that doesn’t acknowledge this sort of thing is possible, I was clueless.” Not that there weren’t any clues….
I’ve been doing this for 16 years now, but before that, one of the clues came to me when I was selling home alarm systems and I walked into a woman’s home. I couldn’t stop crying and I didn’t know why. “Who died?” I asked her.
Of course, she wanted to know what I was talking about, so I said, “Your husband died in your home didn’t he?”
“Yes.”
“A month ago?”
“Yes.”
“That’s why you want an alarm system.”
“Yes.”
I told her he was still around because she was grieving. If you would have asked me how I knew any of that I wouldn’t have been able to tell you. Of course, now I can.
It’s true that your grief keeps your son connected to you, but you are not keeping him from his spiritual growth. It’s because it’s part of his spiritual growth that he’s with you. Part of his journey now is to help you with your journey through your grief.
People talk about “spiritual guides” all of the time. You mentioned them in your message to me. Let me assure you that your son is now one of your guides, along with all of your loved ones who have passed away before him.
Your son is being taken care of by the same God who created him, loved him, and welcomed him back home. He is also being taken care of by all those who loved him through you. Your son is not in pain, nor does he hold you responsible for what happened. If he were communicating to you through me, I know he would tell you to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
In fact, I know that the reason you reached out to me was because somewhere deep down in your heart, you heard him asking you to, so that you won’t take your own life. In other words he guided you to do so. Please listen to him; what you’re contemplating is not what he wants for you, or from you.
The lesson you are to learn now is to forgive yourself, because God and your son have already forgiven you. Grief is the price we all pay for love. Please go to see a grief counselor, join a bereavement group, get a discernment from a reputable medium…, whatever you have to do to get through the pain you’re feeling. You will see your son again, I promise you that you will. But your son doesn’t want it to be before it’s your time.
As your grief heals, you’ll find out that your son has been with you all of the time. You haven’t been able to be aware of this because you’re in so much pain. But he would want you to know that again, he does not blame you. He doesn’t want you to blame yourself – for anything.
I want to thank you for writing me. It took a lot of courage for you to reach out to me like this. So you see, you do have that strength within you. Your feelings are being felt by a lot of people who are going through the same thing. I hope that my words have helped you a little, and thank you for sharing, you may have helped many more people than you’ll ever know by following your son’s guidance, reaching out in your pain.
Finally, I’ve written a book which will be coming out fairly soon. I wrote it for people who are grieving, and how to deal with the pain you’re feeling, using what I’ve learned from those on the Other Side, like your son. When it comes out, I’ll make sure that you get a copy – free of charge. Please hang in there until it comes out. I wrote it for you. Please feel free to contact me directly through my website.
I feel your peace,
Anthony
https://www.anthonyquinata
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